Thursday, September 2, 2010

11 things

1.There are at least 2 people in this world that would die for you
2. At least 15 people in this world will love you in some way
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they dont like you
5. Every night someone thinks about you before they go to sleep
6. You mean the world to someone
7. You are special and unique
8. Someone you dont even know exists loves you
9. When you make the biggest mistake every, something good comes from it
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take another look
11. Always remember the compliments you recieve and forget about the rude remarks

Monday, July 26, 2010

the little things....

the way my hair smells so good when i take it out of a ponytail.
the way the freckles on my nose still show through my foundation.
how it's possible to laugh so hard that it feels like I just did an ab workout.
putting on sweatpants after shaving my legs.
catching myself smiling when thinking about a memory.
smelling my favorite meal being cooked for dinner.
waking up to realize that I still have another hour to sleep in.
having those days when i realize i dont need a boy to make me happy.
when in school something hillarious happens and i cant stop laughing even if i bite my tounge.
when my favorite song comes on the radio.
when i have a story that i think is funny and people actually agree.
how relieving it feels to take off my jeans after school.
getting a notification that a friend wrote on my wall.
chipping off my nail polish when im bored and finally getting it clean.
the taste of my favorite lip gloss.
how good it feels to finally itch that itchy spot.
having the smell of air caught on my clothes.
spending hours in a resturant talking to my friends and not even taking a bite of my food.
knowing the answer to a question on a game show.
dancing in the aisles of the supermarket.
when i can finally get over those stupid hiccups.
eating a meal that i cooked and can feel proud of.
how much better my fuzzy socks can make me feel.
getting a call that someone needs me to babysit.
when a teacher acknowledges that i've done something right.
the feeling i get when im nice to those who are left out.
finding a lucky penny.
realizing that i dont have to be dependent on anybody but myself for my own happiness.
actually looking forward to tomorrow, despite the things i could be dreading.
having a dream and somehow thinking that it's my fate.
finally learning the name of that song that i havent been able to remember in months.
how exciting it is to get something in the mail addressed to me.
shopping and looking at everything i bought right when i come home.
when an old friend whom i havent talked to in a while strikes up a conversation.
the feeling of donating charity.
the funniest things little kids say.
knowing that im not the only one in a class who dislikes the teacher or is confused.
catching a yawn from someone else, or having them catch one from me.
being extremely hungry after exercising and coming home to dinner.
when i get some kind of "deja vu" but cant really tell what it is.
driving with the car window down and feeling the rush of wind against my face.
the funny tingling of hitting my "funny bone."
when i have a much better day than yesterday.
those times when i surprise myself with how confident i sound.
finally getting into bed after a long night of studying.
seeing a rainbow and wondering where it is.
blowing a huge bubble with bubble gum then popping it.
finding something absolutely hillarious on kid's show.
when i think that i need a refill but i realize that the ice has melted just enough.
perfecting that first bit mark into an apple.
when the cashier rings up whatever im buying and i realize it's on sale.
when i can actually get to bed early.
the feeling after i finally can get to bed early.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

do you ever...

do you ever...
look for your phone and start freaking out when you cant find it...
then you realize its right in your hand?
do you ever...
when your friends ask you who you like...
you say you like someone, but you dont know his name.
even though his name is written all over your notebook at school?
do you ever...
write in BS answers on the worksheet you forgot to do last night for
homework?
do you ever...
wish you could go back to elementary school...
when the days were so much easier and there
was no drama?
do you ever...
jump up and down over something stupid?
do you ever...
know you did something stupid...
and wish you could go back?
do you ever...
enjoy sitting all by yourself?
while your mind is spinning and spinning...
do you ever...

love someone sooo much, but you just

d o n ' t k n o w h o w t o t e l l h i m?

do you ever...

jump up and down on your bed
after he asked you out
on your first date?
do you ever...
take crazy pictures with your friends
for no apparent reason?
do you ever...
remember the first time you danced with a guy
do you ever...
think about how you can be crazy and just be yourself
around your best friends, but when you're around
other people, you're totally cautious of whatever
you're doing?
do you ever...
wish you could have the kind of kiss in the movies?
do you ever...
pick a song for the guy you like...
and every time it comes on,
you think of him?
do you ever...
really want a hug?
...me too.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

feel beautiful

Feel beautiful:
in your new dress.
with your new salon hairstyle.
in your favorite jeans.
with your perfect make-up.
in those rockin' sweatpants.
in the rain.
next to the most beautiful person you know.
with your crush.
during a saturday night sleepover.
on monday morning-back to school.
when you're sick.
when it's sunny.
with your friends.
when you're alone.
in a crowd of strangers.
with no make-up on.
with a messy bun.
in your favorite t-shirt.
in mis-matched clothes.
when you're dirty.
with your bulky, winter jacket on.
after your first kiss.
when you're one.
when you're ninety-one.
when someone tells you so.
when someone says otherwise.
because everyday you'll feel better. because everyone is.

Friday, June 18, 2010

It's Not The End...

How many of you have ever had a crush on someone?
How many of you have ever fallen in love?
And how many of you have had your heart "broken"?
now, i'm no magician, but i can guess that a lot of you raised your hands. if i asked why, or howm you'd probably tell me a story that i've heard a thousand other times about how you met a boy who was, "perfect for you, and you made this mistake of falling so fast because in the end, he broke your heart into tiny little pieces." you'd tell me how you cried yourself to sleep at night and, for some of you, started cutting and thought your life was over. you believed what he told you, how much he loved you, and when he took it all back you acted like the world was ending, you couldn't go on, you just gave up on life.
Now how many of you have ever heard this quote:
"Someday, someone will walk into your
life and make you realize why it never
worked out with anyone else."
i'm sure all of you have heard this before. most girls claim it's their favorite, that they pretty much live by it. but most of the girls that say that, they're lying. girls only say that stuff to try and convince themselves, and their friends, that it's true. but they think otherwise. they think this "mr.right" that broke their heart is the one they're meant to be with. but if you took the chance to remember this, you'll know what he's not. if we could remember this every time someone had their heart "broken," there would be a lot more happy people on this planet. it's true.
if you meet a guy who means the world to you, that's okay. that's great, actually. but if he breaks your heart, do me a favor. remember this quote. it'll help a lot. think of it this way:
If he was your life, would your heart be broken? if he really did love you, why isnt he here now? and if he is the one, and he leaves, he'll come back. if he doesn't, well, then he's obviously not the right one for you. so let it go.
Remember this....
if he breaks your heart, it will hurt. hell, it'll hurt like a bitch. but he broke your heart. he lied to you when he said forever. it's okay to be upset. but don't say the world is ending. because it's not. that someone who walks into your life, he's out there somewhere. you might not meet him for awhile, you might meet him tomorrow. but either way, he's out there. that doesn't mean you have to sit and wait for him to show up, it just means that if a boy breaks your heart, he's not him. so move on. you never know just what, or who, you'll find.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Makes You Think

If You Have
food in your fridge, clothes on your back, a roof over your head, and a place to sleep...
You are richer than 75% of the world.


If You Have
money in the bank, your wallet, and some spare change...
You are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.

If you woke up this morning with more health than illness...
you are more blessed than the million people who will not survive this week.

If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the agony of imprisonment or torture, or the horrible pangs of starvation...
you are luckier than 500 million people alive and suffering.

If you can read this message
You are more fortunate than 3 billion people in the world who cannot read it at all.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Love Gives Me Hope

These are random things that have happened that gave people hope, (not mine).

My parents have been married for 35 years.
The other day my mom told me that when my dad calls her up at work to see if she wants to grab a cup of coffee, she still gets butterflies in her stomach.
Their everlasting love gives me hope.

Last Thursday my parents had a huge fight, and I stayed up all night crying, unable to sleep.
I messaged my boyfriend and told him what had happened. Very late at night he texted me telling me to go outside. I did, and he stood there in the pouring rain, holding flowers. He kissed me, and it took all the pain away. His love hives me hope.

I was abused by my parents as a child.
My little brother texted my best friend that I was threatened to be killed by my parents. Jake drove to my house. When he got there my dad pulled a gun on me and Jake jumped in front and the bullet went in his arm. Today, I sit next to my husband who risked his life for mine. Your love GMH.

A guy I knew in high school would bring two dozen roses to school every Valentines Day.
He would give one rose to each girl he knew didn't have a valentine. He felt that every girl deserved to feel special. I was one of those girls. We've been married for 3 years. Stand up guys in a world of flakes GMH.

Today, I saw two mentally handicapped high schoolers at my school walking hand-in-hand, completely oblivious to the sneers and teases of my fellow peers.
Their honest, innocent love GMH.

3 years ago, my boyfriend and I entered universities on opposite sides of the US.
Since then, I've kept telling him that he'd be happier with someone closer. Yesterday, after not seeing him since before our first year, he showed up at my dorm. To propose. Love that survived 2000 miles GMH.

Yesterday, I told my best friend that I was gay.
She is a Neo-Orthodox Jew and believes homosexuality is an abomination. Instead of disowning me, she just smiled and said 'Yay! Now we can boy-compare!' A best friend's love, no matter what GMH.

The other day I saw a young teenage couple riding a bike.
The boy was peddling, and the girl was riding on the back of it. They were laughing and smiling, until the boy stopped the bike, looked up at the girl and kissed her. It was the sweetest thing I'd ever witnessed. Young love GMH.

2 years ago, at my daughter's wedding, her alcoholic, violent ex-boyfriend stormed in with a knife.
Before anyone could stop him, he slashed at her. Her fiancee took the slash. After being rushed to the hospital, he went into a coma. She stayed with him night and day. Eventually he woke up. Yesterday, they welcomed Ciara and Josh into the world. Their love GMH.

I was rushed into the hospital has I had a severe asthma attack which left me in a coma for 24 hours.
When I woke up, a popular boy at school was beside my bed and comforted me. I had never spoke to him, bu always liked him. When I was discharged, my mom drove me and him to my house, and all my friends were there. He planned it all. He GMH.

Last night I called my boyfriend crying, telling him that I wished he was here.
We talked for six hours. When we got off the phone, I heard tapping on my window. I looked out to see him, throwing rocks. He lives in Boston, and drove six hours to come see me. His love GMH.

I was raped two years ago.
My husband, while deployed, would stay online with me all night sacraficing his own sleep to talk to me and help me through my nightmares. When I would ask if he wanted to go to sleep, he would say, "It's my job to protect my country, but my most importand job is to love and protect you." His forever understanding GMH.

I was always depressed.
I had left a suicide note for my best friend to find. I was about to jump off a bridge when he showed up with seven notebooks. Each page was a letter written to me about how much he's in love with me. We've been dating for three years now, and Austin's love still GMH.

My 22-year old sister is in a wheelchair.
Her best friend of 20 years, took her to a party recently and her favorite song came on. She said, "I wish I could dance to this song." Her best friend picked her up and said, "Your wish is my command," and whirled her around. He then put her in her wheelchair, and proposed to her. His love of 20 years GMH.

Two years ago, I went to a movie with a close friend.
He didn't know that I was going to commit suicide the next day to escape my abusive boyfriend. In the dark, he slipped his hand into mine after 10 years of friendship and waiting. His love gave me the courage to leave. His patience GMH.

I finally told my girlfriend the truth: That I hadn't really recovered from drug addiction.
I started to cry, sure she would leave me. She said that she loved me and we would get through it, no matter what. Yesterday, I was released from rehab. Today, she agreed to marry me. Love GMH.

Today at work, I dug through the trash to help a lady find her ring.
When I found it, I handed it to her and she hugged me, saying it was the ring her deceased husband had given her when they got married 40 years ago, and she'd never taken it off. Undying love GMH.

Today I brought my boyfriend home for the first time.
My former boyfriends have felt uncomfterable around my sister, Katie, who has Down Syndrom. When Katie met my boyfriend, she hugged him and said, "I love you already." What did my boyfriend do? He said, "I love you too. Sorry Auden, but she's stolen my heart." His understanding GMH.